For the record, I did try to take it easy (pretty much, except the one day I couldn't stand the filth in my house and ripped all the bedding off and vacuumed the entire house). I have worn my pj's more than my regular clothes the past two weeks.....that should say it all. Anyway, after not feeling better and still having a low grade fever on and off for a week or more, I went back to the doctor......different doctor....he said my lungs sounded okay and that maybe I had the influenza bug and there wasn't much they could do. Mind you, I had the infamous influenza test to see if that's what I had (they stick a gi-normous q-tip up your nose until it touches your brain and then twist.....oh yes, it's fun!) and it came back negative, but they aren't 100%. So, last Tuesday I went home feeling dumb.....I decided to just ride it out. I REALLY took it easy and Layne (or photos of my house at this moment) can attest to that.
Layne took the kids to his parent's house and told me that I'd better not do anything but rest. While this all sounded very fine, it was a long, miserable day. I missed my husband, I missed my kids and I was bored out of my brains (when I wasn't sleeping). Thanks to my mother-in-law for taking care of my kiddos, though. When Layne got home, I tried to convince him that I was feeling better.....he said, "you sound the same as you did two weeks ago." True, but I wanted to be better so badly.
Finally this morning when I woke up and the entire left side of my face was throbbing with pain, I decided to go back to the doctor. He said I still sounded tight in my chest like I still had some sort of bronchial infection and probably the beginning of a sinus infection.....so, on to a new and hopefully better antibiotic. He also prescribed mucinex.....Layne will like that. While watching t.v. yesterday, a commercial came on for Mucinex.....the lady was coughing her guts out and Layne says, "Look, it's you Mel...you could be the poster child for Mucinex." How sweet.
Anyway, I'm REALLY hoping and praying that this crazy sickness will decide to exit my body....SOON! It's funny because I've been thinking a lot about other people's trials lately and how there is always something to learn from a trial. While this hasn't been a HUGE trial, I'd be lying if I said it hasn't been long and hard and sometimes brought me to tears. I am NOT good with physical pain, but I've been trying to think of the good things that have come with this. Here's what I came up with:
Things I've Learned:
- I am learning that I need to SLOW down. Even before I was really sick, I had pretty much every minute of my life mapped out with some task/chore/project that needed to be done. While I was sick one day, after dropping the kids off to school, I decided to check the mail (in my pajamas and snow boots no less). Hyrum came with me and was so excited about making footprints in the snow. Usually I hurry him along because I have an agenda. But, what was I in a hurry for.....laying around feeling miserable? So, I let him take his sweet time jumping in the snow and walking around. It was peaceful, it was nice, it took like 5 extra minutes and he wasn't upset on having to go inside because I didn't rush him in the house. I (although I hate to admit it) am a pretty high-strung, get-the-job-done type of person and I'm missing out on lots of sweet little moments because I'm always in a rush!
- I need to listen to my BODY and respect it. Several times before I got really sick, I kept feeling like I need to sit down or take a nap, but I told my body, "you're lazy" and kept on going.....dumb!
Things I'm grateful for:
- I have saved a bunch of makeup since I haven't been wearing much if at all.
- I have almost completed 3 photo books......if I had to be awake for the kids, I could sit on the computer and click on the mouse....so I digital scrapbooked.
- My kids have been healthy (knock on wood)
- My husband has been very helpful in trying to be the mom and the dad.
- My friends/family have been great about calling to check on me, bringing meals, and helping with my kids.
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